Emotional Bombardment

I sat up on my bed at 3 am in the morning to write this. I don't know how else to let this be known, or unknown given the traffic this blog receives.

I just don't know if you'll ever take me seriously enough.

From the very first moment I say something serious about my feelings I receive nothing but disbelief. Why?

Fuck it.

I'm never the person people would consider to be serious about anything. It just makes me feel like a walking joke. WELL fuck you. Bunch of inconsiderate assholes. Granted, I know that it's in my personality to be someone jolly and happy. But what the fuck whenever I get serious people start asking if I'm alright. What the actual fuck? Do you really think of me as someone that can handle being serious? Do you think I'll never become serious enough to finish and be a success someday?

Well frankly I don't give a damn about what you think. But come on? DI BA PWEDENG MAGKAROON NG KAUNTING SERYOSO SA BUHAY?

Whatever, rant post naman 'to yaan mo na

Or maybe this is just me coping up with emotions that resulted from what amounts to, essentially, rejection. Never gonna be good enough for you, haha. Shit like that. Whatever. My confidence is just broken up pieces being held together by duct tape. Easy to cut through when you have a pair of scissors.

I'm used to picking them up anyway.


Signing off,

-theguyintheshadows-

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