1:42 na, and I'm still up writing this. Whatever, mas masarap mag sulat talaga pag ganitong panahon. Lahat tulog, wala kang kausap kundi ang isip mo. At talagang mapapaisip ka nga sa mga nangyayari sa buhay mo.
Ano na nga ba meron?
Sometimes, life deals us a hand that we don't know how to win. Minsan naman parang binigyan ka ng apat na dos sa pusoy dos. Sobrang saya nun diba?
Tapos talo bigla.
Bakit ganun? What went wrong?
Wala e umasa ka masyado. You expected to win with that hand, and so you played it reckless. You went all in and let your pride and expectations get the best of you.
And so this brings me to my point. Everything fell into place just the way I wanted it to. Nakuha ko yung apat na dos. Saya sa pakiramdam. Every day that passed made me happier, and in turn made me more and more reckless. Apat na dos e, sino pa bang matatalo dun?
And that's when you hit the speed bumps that jerk you awake. The speed bumps that remind you that life isn't that easy, perfect little game you thought it was. The speed bumps that show you how careful you have to be, or everything you think you had will just go as easily as they came.
Pero side ko lang naman yun. Recently, I've been reminded that this isn't the perfect situation that I want to be in. That this is just the closest thing that's possible at the moment. But don't get me wrong, I'm ecstatic about it. I love everything about it, and I wouldn't trade it for anything.
But can't it be something more?
And I think we both know the answer to that question. And I truly respect your decision on that :)
Kasi kasalanan ko rin, namisinterpret ko yung situation. And medyo mahirap bumangon sa recklessness na yun. But trust me pag sinabi kong kahit ano gagawin ko para di mawala friendship natin :) sorry di ko masabi ng direktahan 'to. Ayoko lang na may masabi akong masasaktan ka, cause that's the last thing I want to do :)
Alam ko namang mababasa mo 'to. Ikaw pa. ;)
AT DAHIL SABI KO MAGPOPOST AKO PARA MAKABASA MGA ANAK KONG 2021:
Tandaan, ang lesson ng post na ito ay:
Di masamang umasa, pero piliin ang tamang panahon para umasa ;)
P.S. walang magcucut sainyo ha, papakainin ang class ng lunch ang mag cut ng walang legit reason. =))
Signing off,
-theguyintheshadows-
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